Timeline Weaving
What quantum leaping means to me
Today I would like to talk about timeline weaving, how it excites me and how you can do it too according to me. I will assume that you’ve already heard of the esoteric terms ‘timelines’, ‘soul contracts’ and ‘quantum leaps’. I vaguely touch on them in my most recent poddy ep, Gifts and Mistakes (SEASON FINALE!). This essay serves to clarify and deepen those propositions.
Ever since I was young, I felt as though I was living somebody else’s life. In the back of my mind I sensed that something was deeply wrong and I could never put my finger on it. With each passing year the unease only grew stronger.
It wasn’t until moving to Canada early this year that I was able to make sense of the unease. Extracting myself from my family/historical constellation in Australia and giving my nervous system the space to process freely, I unexpectedly recovered a traumatic memory from my infancy - one which had been suppressed my whole life. This one-off event had generated a massive rupture in my energetic field and swung both the perpetrator and myself into immediate dissociation and denial. The subtle subconscious adjustments to my behaviour from thereon caused me to make decisions out of mistrust, fear and hyper vigilance in place of innate expression.
Alongside the activation of this memory, I experienced a profound understanding that the event was an impulsive choice driven by free will on the part of the perpetrator. In other words, it was not ‘supposed’ to happen. I experienced a visceral comprehension of the original path I would have walked in life, had the violation not occurred (the superior timeline, if you will). The realisation was both blissful and horrific, but mostly fine, as since I stated earlier, I knew something was ‘off’ the whole time.
In the past five years the focus of my personal life and financial earnings had inadvertently become trauma repair and advocacy work. I thank God as I could not have arrived at my current standpoint without it. However, identifying as ‘healer’ kind of disgusted me as I dismissed my deeper desire for humour, artistic expression and creative collaboration in this role. For me it simply reinforced concepts of servitude/powerlessness that I had unconsciously subsumed due to that early event.
With the help of a highly skilled intuitive friend, I was able to reenter the traumatic memory and retrieve my ‘original’ self with relative ease. The process was satisfying and simple. I will provide a bit of quasi-educational context on that in the next few paragraphs for those interested.
When a person experiences a shock, be that physical or subtle, an aspect of their psyche “jumps out” of the body. This can be exemplified in the instance of a person losing consciousness during a car crash. Traumatic amnesia is the name we give the process where the brain braces for damage by shutting down pain signals and memory function. What most don’t realise is that what gets “shut down” during that event doesn’t disappear. It remains a packet of energetic information, held static in time/space at the scene/node of the incident. It is a living thing with the potential to be retrieved.
The process of memory retrieval is widely known in therapeutic settings as Memory Reconsolidation (examples include CPT and EMDR). While I dabble in conventional therapies now and again, I prefer the experimental work of Dolores Cannon’s QHHT, quantum meditation and interactive bodywork (some of my favourite practitioners are linked in this post). I consider the process akin to an organ transplant, where the ‘organ’ is the energy of wholeness previously embodied by the person prior to traumatic event. With conscious effort and presence, there is little room for the organ to be rejected by the body.
In the quantum field, time does not flow linearly. There, all possible timelines exist together. My ‘superior’ timeline flows concurrently beside me, available for re-uptake at any moment. The ‘original self’ contained within that timeline has a distinct visceral quality that is both familiar and memorable. I can develop a relationship with that self and have the potential to embody ‘her’ nervous system.
Immediate action compresses lost time. Decisive gestures not only move me closer to the trauma-absent timeline; they train the musculature of my consciousness to instinctively choose it without prompt. Soon enough, choices become indistinguishable from ‘becoming the original’ to ‘acting as her’ to ‘of her’. There’s no planning it out, imagining what she would do or postulating what I’m missing out on. Rather, there’s a felt sense of her actual energetic substance in my subtle body system. I choose from her essence, and lost time simply ceases to be relevant.
This is far more potent than the adage “believe and you shall become”. It is rather the knowing that nothing was ever lost; experience simply collapses into wisdom and accelerated growth.
All of this is to say that I am currently on a re-uptake rampage. Creating a Substack is one of the tactical methods I have chosen in order to actively retrieve my original timeline. Each essay is a node of the wisdom I developed between selves. Additionally, my podcast, What Was That, represents the final contraction of a past self giving birth to the original.
I hope in all of this I’ve encouraged you to realise how such a process might apply in your own life. There need not be any regrets where timeline weaving is a genuine prospect. It gives “there are no mistakes, only lessons” a run for its money, and it is much more feasible in my estimation. It can even be thrilling, which I am certainly finding it to be.